What's it all about?

A little while ago...well, back in February, Katzu of Black Stains on White Wings has challenged me to describe what my blog is about exactly, with pictures. 10 pictures, to be precise.

Well, I'm obviously not that good with blog awards and challenges; it's such a heartwarming feeling to receive one, to see that people like my blog and they're interested in getting to know me more through these challenges, and I'm very thankful for them, but I still have a hard time getting them done. But this one is too much fun to miss, so let's see what is't all about...!

 

 

 

 * Alternative fashion * Outfits *  Beauty * Outings * Home decor * Lifestyle
* Food * Kittens * DIY * Photography * Modelling * Nerd stuff  * Movies * Series * Anime

* My life in a nutshell *

P.s.: I don't know if the challenge requires me to tag othet bloggers, I guess it does...but please, if you like the challenge, feel free to copy it, because trust me, it's fun and I'd love to see it speading! ^^

A new job, an interview, chinese and polkadots...

Yeah, all that in one post; I don't even know where to begin...!

A couple of days ago - I believe it was on Thuesday -, my previous job asked me to assign to a 2 weeks long follow up project, some kind of a clean up process and I accepted. I started today.
Apart from this unexpected assignment, I've been looking for jobs and appliing for job ads all the time, and I got invited to an interview, also for today.
So I had to dres up nicely, which gave me an opportunity to show off something, that's not only new, but polkafotted, which happens to be the theme of Professor Z's Homework Assignment for the 13th of June...or, in other words: today!

So, let's start with the outfit: Normally I'd pick something more elegant for a job interview, but seeing as I made an appointment for the afternoon and I worked my 8 hours first, I decided by something more comfortable, therefore the black jeans.
I just piked up the shirt a couple of days ago; I could say I bought it to be able to contribute into The Professor's Homework Assignment, because apart from this shirt, I don't own any polkadotted item, neither clothing, nor anything else. It's not my thing. But when I spotted this romantic, little blouse, I fell in love with it, together with all it's dots...!

Besides, green seems to bring me luck, I wore a green shirt to the previous job interview as well.

As for the job, so far, it sounds like the perfect job; They're hireing an office assistant for a great variety of tasks from tidying up through the usual administrational tasks to taking on smaller design projects with the opportunity to learn and grow...

...but, there's a fly in the ointment: it's a part time position, only 4 hours per day and the salary - however it's still very reasonable - aligns to to the schedule. 

I left the interview with mixed feelings, but we talked it over with my boyfriend by a delicious bowl of chine bamboo chicken with oyster mushrooms...Mmmh, yummiii!!! :P

Anyway, back on topic: My boyfriend - and my mother as well; we've just spoken on the phone - encouraged me to take this job if I qualify. He says, we can afford me earning less for doing something 'more'...it sounds cheesy, but he says it's more important to like what you're doing on a daily basis, than money...and I agree am so thankful for his support!

The final interview will be sometime next week, but it's looking very good right now; I talked to the head of the office and the two managers of the two departments and so far, I got very positive feedback from all three, while they made a good impression on me as well...We'll see, we'll see - said the blind man, but it's definitely worth a shot...!

Welcome, Sasuke!

I've been wanting another kitten since we moved and I started to work, because Itachi had to spend so much time alone. So when one of my boyfriend's colleagues posted pictures of kittens looking for a new home, we reserved one immediately.

He's just arrived today, but he's sleeping comfortably in Itachi's neglected basket already. We named him Sasuke after the anime character, which is actually the little brother of the character we named out first cat, Itachi after. ^^

Their relationship is not yet brotherly - they're still rather distant, suspicious and defensive - especially Itachi - , but I think, it's going to be fine. 

Red & Black Week 2013 - Day 6: The Grand Finale

Today we've come to the last day and The Grand Finale of Ms. Kitty's Red & Black Week...Wow, already? This week has gone by so fast, but although I'm sad and sorry I couldn't participate every day, I enjoyed this event and all your posts so much! ^^

I've been collecting photos of  my red and black things throughout the whole week and did find quite some - my hairbrush, my fan, the bag of my favorite tea brand, my katana replica, a bag...but eventually I decided to dedicate this last post to the two most valuable and beloved red and black items in my posession: Without them, there would be no blog either! ^^

So, let me present to you the tools of two of my biggest addictions; my camera and my fabulous Senseo coffee machine! The last member of my trinity would be a red and black laptop, by the way!

Aren't they fabulous?! ^^

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And now, Ladies, head over to Bane's gorgeous DIY blog, Goth It Yourself and check out her giveaway she's holding in order to celebrate reaching 400 followers! She is's giving away the goodies she made for the Red & Black Week 2013, that's why I'm including the reference in this post. 

You can enter the giveaways by following her blog - which I strongly recommend to anyone who hasn't discovered it yet! -, and her Facebook page on the following URLs: GIY - Goth It Yourself and GIY @ FB

Red & Black Week 2013 - Day 5: Feeling Fabulous

Wow, it's already the last, but one day of Ms. Kitty's Red & Black Week, so let's stir things up a little before tomorrow's grand final! ;)

I think I haven't even properly thanked you yet for all your comments and support and positive energy...So I'd like to say a big - big - big thanks to all of you, you helped more, than you think and it really means a lot to me! ^^

Today I'm already feeling much better and more positive!
I've been cleaning up and reorganizing my wardrobe; I finally dug up my summer stuff and hid those hateful sweaters in the back...! ^^

Also, I've been invited to a rockabilly night, which includes a theatrical dance performance and an after - party, so I decided to try on the outfit I planned for the event. I'm sure you have had many gorgeous outfits assembled in your head, that looked absolutely ridiculous when you put them on...me too. Now, this one is definitely not one of them...! :D

The shirt is ancient, the skirt is thrifted...what?! Yes, it's thrifted! And it already earned one of the top places of my 'Best Thrift - finds Ever' list for sure! It also scores very high on my 'I feel like the whole world is at my feet when I weat this' list, by the way...! :D

I added a bunch of red accessories, the hair flower and the studded wristband are coming from C&A, and the kitty wristband is, if I remember correctly from Death Kitty, I picked it up at some festival a couple of years ago...Star shaped earrings, blood red Lipstick from Lora...aaand, the final touch: Red - sole booties; Yes, I did pick them just because it's Red & Black Week, but aren't colored sholes fabulous anyway? ;)

Alright, you're still not too late to catch tomorrow's grand final if you want in for this awesome blogging event! Go, check out Ms. Kitty's blog for more entries and throw in your own goodies too!

Red & Black Week 2013 - Day 4: A Casual Day

I had to run some errands, do some shopping and met a friend of mine today, so I wanted to dress up casually. Unfortunately, the rainy weather didn't allow me to dress as comfy as I planned and I had to jump into a pair of boots and wear a jacket as well.

Besides, I was terribly late as usual, therefore the wacky photos...I'm really sorry about the poor picture quality, but I have recently reinstalled my PC and I just switched to the latest edition of Photoshop, which, instead of saving them, totally screws up photos, that aren't crystal clear and sharp to begin with...well, thank you technology! 

Anyway...I'm wearing a pair of boots from C&A, skinny pants from Darkstar and a DIY cutout top. 

Red and Black Week 2013 - Day 3: Red, black & white

Alright, after yesterday's emotion - filled rant, it's time to have some fun!

Admittedly, I'm pretty scattered right now, but as the most of you might know, Ms. Kitty's Red and Black Week is already at it's 3rd day and although I haven't been actively participating so far, I didn't want to miss out on the whole event...especially since today is a special theme - day; Red, Black, and White.

I'm going to show you my outfit for the latest Aninite party that followed the convention I've failed to post about...Yeah, yeah, I know, I've been a terrible blogger lately, but at least I'll finally have time to write again...! ;)

Anyways...schoolgirl with ponytails...kitchy, I know, but fun; Just go, ask my boyfriend...! ;)

Anime fans are usually still labeled as freaks or pervs, but they're certainly fun to go out with.
I attend to all kinds of parties - goth events, mainstream clubs, festivals, conventions...you name it -, and I don't even want to get started on the Hungarian underground scene, but I must say, that the anime community is by far the most open - minded and accepting, and the most comfortable, therefore the most enjoyable with the most pleasant atmosphere of them all.

Have you ever been to an anime party or is it absolutely not your thing?
If you're just a wee bit into it, whether it's anime, J - pop, cosplay, the oriental kitchen or whatever linked to the subculture -, I dare to say, you should try it! ;)

Back to the couch...a closure on the past three months.

The last days at work...two weeks ago, my teamlead approached me to tell, that they cannot offer me a permanent contract because however they are satisfied wih my performance, it dosen't fit the company's budget...At first I felt sad, later, at some points I felt disappointed, and ripped off...I felt angry. I felt desperate and beyond hope because here I am again, sitting on my couch in my pijamas with a cup of coffee, unemployed...sending out CVs by the dozen and the only replies I got so far are scams...

And of course, more importantly, because this job and this community in the office has helped me so much; I think, I can say it saved me from loosing ground; Before I started working, I felt down, I even dare to throw around words like 'worthless' or 'meaningless'...
Sure, it was comfortable to sit at home 24/7, but I had no life, I had no connection to the word, I had no idea what's going on out there...I was melancholic and anti - social all time, I was depressed...and even my relationship with my boyfriend suffered from it...but I didn't relaize anything...

When I started working, I basically had to get out of my safety zone and while in the beginning I felt like I'm stuck in hell, I slowly started to relax and let people in...I've always had troubles fitting in, and this was probably the first place and community in my entire life, that didn't make me feel uneasy...I worked in a young, free - minded community without conventions and labels, I wasn't the freak I've always been in every community before, because they have never made me see myself that way...I opened up and the world itself opened up to me in return.

Yes, I know it might sound weird, or even cheesy, but I've been having serious social anxiety issues for a while; I had no idea how to act or behave amongst others, how to make connections and especially, how to keep them up...There are a lot of reasons, like the lack of trust in people, the fear of being misunderstood and bullied...or being used, or loosing them once I let them in...

I still have to push myself hard to keep in touch, to answer messages, or to actually go if I get invited, but...I made friends, and I feel attached to them. Probably for the first time of my entire life I can finally believe that people accept me the way I am and I'm also able to accept them and open up to them; Probably, for the first time of my entire life, I stopped pretending I have no feelings and I want to fit in...and I do.

I got a lot of positive impressions and feedback both work - wise and socially, including male attention coming from my collegues, which also helped to shake me up and mend and revamp my self - image. Besides, I've finally felt worthy and important again, and having my own approach and work appreciated and acknowledged built a different kind of self - confidence as well.

I've learned so much in these three months and I believe I'm a better person with a better grasp on reality.
Now, I might be sad and a little broken, but I now going to surrender to self - pity and let myself go again, because I know I'm strong enough and I have people to support me to make it through all this...

Help! I'm late...!

Fortunately, I don't have to get up too early, but I've had trouble sleeping and I've been feeling terribly tired lately, so not so surprisingly, I overslept...Well, not quite, but I did sleep through two snooze alarms, and when I finally woke up between two alarms, it felt like I'm hour late already...

Luckily, I wasn't, I just slept about 25 minutes longer, but I still had to hurry...so, what do you do when you only have 20 minutes to get ready?

Yes, the magical combination of black and white - stirred up with a vest and a moderate splash of colors; Blak, white and bronze always cut it for me, especially with a touch of red!

The vest is thrifted, but one of my favorite pieces in my current wardrobe, and the necklace is from eBay. I hardly ever dear to wear high heels for a whole day, especially at work, but today I couldn't resist.

What do you pick up if you are late or happen to oversleep?

 

Wicked girls read wicked tales

After all those work outfits, I thought I'd show you how I spend my free time...well, at least my quiet evenings in the park, sitting under a lantern before nightfall, which is exactly the best time for Poe...

Tales of Mystery and Imagination contains many famous Poe novels - such as The Masque of the Red Death, The Facts in the Case of M Valdemar, The Murders in the Rue Morgue or The Black Cat - and some others, that I haven't read before.

To be honest, I'm not quite fond of novel collections, but I can wholeheartedly recommend this one!
What do you read? ;)